Some good recovery signs - my appetite is back, so eating is no longer an abstract game of guessing when/how much to eat. Food is enjoyable again, which is nice.
In addition, I was able to sleep last night without any sleep aids! (i.e. Ambien/Klonopin,etc) That's a first in weeks. To be fair, I was out and had three drinks, but it was nothing serious. Still went to bed around 12 or 12:30am, usual time. In general I'm still taking Ambien, either in 5mg or 10mg, though.
I am starting to fully appreciate how far I've come since I was convulsing and not sleeping at night at my worst over a month ago. This whole mess turned sour around August 5th, and by initial projections I was supposed to recover by the end of August.
When I think about it like that, with so many days of feeling terrible spreading onward, I can't imagine it. The time has kind of all blended together, and I'm thankful I've been able to still function, support myself, and do everything I've needed to do in general.
Before this whole mess started, I wanted to experiment with going off of a mood stabilizer. Now, it's clear how much damage changing medications can do - or, at least, when changed too quickly/haphazardly. Lithium is cheap as hell anyway.
Of course, once my sleep normalizes, I still need to get off that Seroquel. That could be a mess. I'll have to be incredibly cautious.
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